I want my life, more than anything else.

Have you ever had something bother you so much, that you just want it to be gone, but it has been part of you so long that you have gotten use to it being in your life?

It sucks having it in your life, but to choose the life you want is harder. Well I have been battling this monkey 🐒 for awhile. I’ve tried things but nothing really works for along time because, well I just didn’t make the change that I need to.

I have PCOS(Polycystic ovary syndrome). PCOS is a hormonal disorder causing enlarged ovaries with small cysts on the outer edges.The cause of polycystic ovary syndrome isn't well understood, but may involve a combination of genetic and environmental factors. The medical community believes that high levels of male hormones (testosterone) prevent the ovaries from producing hormones and making eggs normally. Genes, insulin resistance, and inflammation have all been linked to excess androgen production.

PCOS has been hanging around for awhile, and it’s time I choose my life without it other than with it. I’m tired of the acne, I’m tired of the hairs on my chinny chin chin, I am tired of the belly and the weight that just won’t go, I’m tired of the hyperpigmentation around my neck, I’m tired of my thinning brittle hair, I’m tired of the brain fog, I’m tired of being tired, I’m tired of craving carbs, and sugary stuff. However, they doctors don’t always tell you that having pcos for awhile, a long while turns into diabetes and who wants that.

So today, on this Thursday, I want my life more. A big part about having happiness in your life is being healthy to enjoy your life.

So here it is for the world to see, I’m not perfect, no one is. I just have a good way of hiding the monkey on my back. We all have monkeys 🐒 🐒 🐒 , just some monkeys are cuter than others.

The first step is acknowledging that something needs to change.